Peace of mind.
Happiness.
Contentment.
It feels silly talking about it
when it finally clicks
when you finally understand it,
experience it.
I’ve spent most of my life without it,
filled with worry,
anxiety
consuming my mind and freezing my body,
stealing my breath.
Feeling the world going under
with every “crisis”
but yet not.
Stuck in the loop of the ground
almost giving way beneath me,
but yet not.
Just to relive it again the next day.
And now, very little has changed
but here I am.
Same mind.
Same body.
Bigger “crises.”
Filled with a quiet sense of peace and relaxation,
worried about my mom’s health
but yet not.
Not letting the anxiety trap my mind and body,
breathing calmly and steady,
leaving what I cannot control
to the One that can.
My feet still on the ground,
feeling all ten toes,
waiting for the fall
but yet,
not much has changed.